I have my band concert coming up this Saturday! It is called Riding, Sanging and Dancing. I am not sure why it is called that, ask the conductor.
But if anyone is out by University of Toronto this weekend, come on down to Hart House at 8pm.
I also have been giving music a lot of thought recently. I think I would like to take singing lessons.
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Sunday, November 26, 2006
a jogging adventure
I went jogging yesterday. It was a painful experience that lasted 1 hour and 6 minutes. Now you might be saying, "Wow, Sarah, you must be so fit!" And I tell you that this is not so. Why did I jog for so long? I got lost...in a cemetery for 30 minutes...as it was getting dark. It was eerie.
A cemetery is an interesting place. When I first entered, the tombstones were grey with names like "Rogers" and "Smith" written in capital bold font and relatively little else. However, the further I got, the newer the tombstones looked and little sections of ethnic groups began to appear. I saw what would be a mini-china town, a section where all the tombstones had chinese writing and with faces engraved. No other ethnicity seems to like putting a face to the grave. It is neat how these stones reflect the changing population of a very diverse Toronto and Canada. It is neat to see how different cultures commemorate their dead.
A cemetery is an interesting place. When I first entered, the tombstones were grey with names like "Rogers" and "Smith" written in capital bold font and relatively little else. However, the further I got, the newer the tombstones looked and little sections of ethnic groups began to appear. I saw what would be a mini-china town, a section where all the tombstones had chinese writing and with faces engraved. No other ethnicity seems to like putting a face to the grave. It is neat how these stones reflect the changing population of a very diverse Toronto and Canada. It is neat to see how different cultures commemorate their dead.
Friday, November 17, 2006
asymmetry
I just found out that my left leg is 2 cm shorter than the other. The foot therapist I consulted gave me a wedge to put in my shoe. Hopefully I will no longer be limping to compensate for this difference.
I once read that physical asymmetry was a sign of hardship experienced in one's lifetime. I am quite an asymmetrical person. I wonder what I have gone through that could have physically moulded me to who I am today.
I once read that physical asymmetry was a sign of hardship experienced in one's lifetime. I am quite an asymmetrical person. I wonder what I have gone through that could have physically moulded me to who I am today.
A couple things
1) Last weekend I went to a clinical skills conference and learned a lot of new skills! I love suturing and family medicine is looking very attractive right now.
2) I then when on a wilderness medicine conference at a farm 1.5 hours away from here. It was really fun. We hiked the first night (yeah...it rained...) and got really really wet and muddy, but the warmth of the farm and the fire as we were roasting marshmellows afterwards made it really worth it. The next morning we had an ER doctor give us a workshop on wilderness medicine. It was a lot like lifeguarding actually - though I can't think of when I would ever find myself in such an extreme wilderness position as to be stranded on a mountain or in a cave somewhere! But no doubt, valuable skills learned.
3) grappling with my future in research. I don't know if I want to be a researcher. I sort of think I want to be but for the wrong reasons. And I also feel like I should start doing things I want to because I enjoy them, and not because I feel it may get me ahead.
4) Reading Vincent Lam's book that won the Giller. It is a pretty cool book so far. I have started a mini-book club with a friend of mine and we are reading through it together. I can definitely relate to it and it does pose some interesting questions about our health care system.
5) Still trying to find fulfillment and happiness in Toronto. A slow process for sure.
2) I then when on a wilderness medicine conference at a farm 1.5 hours away from here. It was really fun. We hiked the first night (yeah...it rained...) and got really really wet and muddy, but the warmth of the farm and the fire as we were roasting marshmellows afterwards made it really worth it. The next morning we had an ER doctor give us a workshop on wilderness medicine. It was a lot like lifeguarding actually - though I can't think of when I would ever find myself in such an extreme wilderness position as to be stranded on a mountain or in a cave somewhere! But no doubt, valuable skills learned.
3) grappling with my future in research. I don't know if I want to be a researcher. I sort of think I want to be but for the wrong reasons. And I also feel like I should start doing things I want to because I enjoy them, and not because I feel it may get me ahead.
4) Reading Vincent Lam's book that won the Giller. It is a pretty cool book so far. I have started a mini-book club with a friend of mine and we are reading through it together. I can definitely relate to it and it does pose some interesting questions about our health care system.
5) Still trying to find fulfillment and happiness in Toronto. A slow process for sure.
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
To be or not to be....Is no longer a question.
It was not meant to be.
So I found out that I didn't get a part in my school musical today. It was a sad and bitter discovery.
I think the problem was that I pinned too much expectation on this audition and on the musical itself. I thought it would bring out of me a creative spirit I never had. I thought it would expose me to a group of people who would become my lifelong friends. I thought it would build within me the great confidence I have been looking for for so long...but alas, this will not be so.
But all is not lost, for through this I have realized something else and that is that being in this musical would have probably not provided me with any of the things mentioned above anyway. I am who I am and I must fight my own battles and persevere over my own struggles. A role in the musical would not have given me the life and personality I have dreamed of on a silver platter, those things I must develop myself. Expectation is a dangerous, dangerous thing. Sigh...yet even in my enlightened state, I do fear it will take me a long time to recover from this rejection.
Hmmmm...Perhaps I will try again next year?
So I found out that I didn't get a part in my school musical today. It was a sad and bitter discovery.
I think the problem was that I pinned too much expectation on this audition and on the musical itself. I thought it would bring out of me a creative spirit I never had. I thought it would expose me to a group of people who would become my lifelong friends. I thought it would build within me the great confidence I have been looking for for so long...but alas, this will not be so.
But all is not lost, for through this I have realized something else and that is that being in this musical would have probably not provided me with any of the things mentioned above anyway. I am who I am and I must fight my own battles and persevere over my own struggles. A role in the musical would not have given me the life and personality I have dreamed of on a silver platter, those things I must develop myself. Expectation is a dangerous, dangerous thing. Sigh...yet even in my enlightened state, I do fear it will take me a long time to recover from this rejection.
Hmmmm...Perhaps I will try again next year?
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